Dropped off my child at school today and she started whining about something… The sound of somebody whining, child or adult, immediately triggers an irritated, annoyed response from me–0 to 60 in less than 5 seconds.
When I was younger, I don’t recall having this kind of reaction. I think a case of Pavlov’s Dog got the best of me–through the years (and still going) of having to deal with my daughter’s father (my ex) consistently blaming (not just me, but others in general), not taking responsibility, and making excuses. So, now, whenever I hear anybody (man, child, animal 😛 ) whine or make excuses for their situation, I immediately think of weakness and of the ex.
That brings me to another thought… Age, by no means, signify a certain amount of wisdom and/or common sense. The ex is approximately 10 years older than I, and still behaves the way he does! Meaning, he still won’t take responsibility for his own life situation! When we get into a spat, almost everything that’s going wrong in his life comes down to something that I did to him. That’s a joke in itself! If that were the case and I had that much power over him, trust me, I wouldn’t waste it on making his life hard (through his eyes) but I would make him make my life easier as co-parents, haha!
Sometimes, thinking of the years ahead that I’ll have to deal with him, makes me so angry!! But nobody brought that on other than myself–I’M the one that chose to date him and I’M the one that chose to have a child with him. But I suppose that’s just the price I have to pay for having a near-perfect child.